The People of my 2013

What is this list for? What this contains? This blog will carry the names of the people that made my 2013 remarkable.This will be the first time I'll be doing this list and I hope I can give justice to it.. eheheheh

For sure there are many people that came my way, I've met a lot, I've seen a lot but only few made a tremendous mark in my life. They made me smile, made me happy, some made me cry but still im glad meeting them. And they are the one who made my list of "The People of my 2013".

Knowing a lot of people, spending time with them, sharing moments and stories..and at the end of the day stayed with me.

1) Mommy Mila- a loving, responsible, workaholic, caring and high spirited person, my mom. Thou sometimes she's moody and grumpy probably because of her age (hehehe) but that's understandable. Still I know through thick and thin she'll always be there for us. Love you Mom!

Mommy Mila

 2) bez Quel - Raquel liza aguilar, we've been bestfriends since our second year high school until now so that makes our friendship living for 17 years. Thou  I admit we are not perfect we fought, we've been separated, there were times that with don't communicate at all its bec we're busy in our own world. Moreover we are also not a clinging persons that we really have to be always together to say that we are bestfriend. What we know is that if we need each other we will always be there.

 

Me and Bez Quellie

3) Jonh Paul Acuña- aka jp, thou sometimes I call him boi or panget for no any offensive reason. We've known each other for 10 years now, we started as officemates, then since we have the same like of traveling we became travel buddies, then when I started climbing we also became climbing buddies. We've been together to different places, climbed and reached the mountain top and still looking forward for more. Our friendship became stronger because of fights we fought over, and sometimes we still fight as he's always late in our meeting time.
   Sadly right now Jp is fighting over colon cancer, sickness that making him weak, just thankfully that he's still positive about life, with that it influences me to be happy and thankful. Im praying and wishing that a miracle happen and he gets better.

climbing/travel/kumpare buddy JP and Me

4) Tatay Nestor of Maranat, I only got to know this man when I was invited to climb mt. Maranat, and I guess it is not a coincidence but there's a good reason that i met him, and I could say that it is such a great moment and feeling knowing him. Not that I only found a father figure at him but he is someone who is nice, fighter, a nature lover and preserver. He do take care of us when we are with him at  his nipa hut at top even thou we dont have any blood relationship he welcomes us with open arms. He is also a good father, a husband, comrade and friend. And also by the way I also got to know his youngest son, Justine, since then I treat Justine as my younger brother too. Thank you Tatay Nestor.

w/ bunsong Justine

with Tatay Nestor

5) Jemrell - more known as Isko. He's a man of dignity, principle, responsible, caring and love for the country. Also a man with No time. In fairness to him because of his outlook in life, as he had done outreach programs that opens me and a lot of friends... to the opportunity to help out as well, even thou we both started knowing nothing any idea of each other but because of one objective we are now at the same page. Thou there was a lot of misunderstanding between us, more than just being friends right now we are at the same group the TAGOT with the same hope and mission to help our indigent brothers and sisters specially the native ones.

at Maranat w/ Crazy Isko

6) The Katutubos..the mangyans of mindoro , the dumagat and aetas.. as these people open up my mind at the real situation of their slam and forgotten world. With this event it reminds me to be thankful of what I have but never to turn my back on them, to help them as much as I can.  We can.

<<  Aetas of Cawag, Subic Zambales  and Sito Dueg, Maasin, San Clemente Tarlac >>

Mangyans of Oriental Mindoro

7) Eve and Adah these two gals I've just met late this year are two of the people that helped me during my low times. They became my allies and shoulders to cry out my pain but most specially they became my outdoor buddies ...that helped me out to go on in life. As what the saying goes, its not how long you've been together but how you were together. I'm just happy that two more girls were added on my list and I Hope they'll stay as my good friends.

With my Pretty gals Eve & Adah and Me (from left)

How about you who made your list?

I wish new names will be added on my 2014 list.

Thanks to these people. Thanks everyone. Thank you  Lord for all the opportunity.



itsmejackie

Mapagpalang 2014

Ang taong 2013 ay naging masaya, malungkot, matamis, masakit.
May dumating may nawala, may nanatili may lumisan.
Subalit anu pa man ang nangyari ang panigurado may aral sa buhay na hatid.
Sa taong darating naway tayo ay mas pagpalain, kaligayahan ating mabatid, kapayapaan ay suma atin.

Sana ay huwag din po nating kalimutang alalahanin ang mga kapatid nating naghahangad din ng magandang pagharap sa taong 2014 sa kabila ng mga trahedya at suliranin sa buhay. Tayo'y sama sama sa pagdarasal ng maayos at masayang bagong buhay para sa bawat isa. Naway ang mga nakakataas ay matutong bumaba, yumuko upang ang mga nasa baba ay mapantayan.

Panalangin para sa inang bansa. Panalangin para sa ating kababayan. Panalagin para sa bawat pamilya. Panalangin para sa bawat Filipino.

At sa mga nasaktan, nabwisit, nakulitan ng inyong lingkod PEACE na po tayo, Forgiven na rin ikaw/kayo.


MARAMING SALAMAT sa 2013.
Harapin natin ang 2014 ng masaya at buo.

Mapagpala at masaganang bagong taon!
SALAMAT KAY BATHALA!


~mapaglarong isip
~pogs
~mam/kap
~kaibigan
~prinsesa ng TAGOT
~inyong lingkod




itsmejac c",)
      

Mt. Balingkilat...A lovely Punishment

View from top

Our climb to Mt. Balingkilat, located in Subic, Zambales is something that I wouldn't forget...AS IN I WILL NOT. Well once again my climbing buddy/friend JP invited me to another climb as requested by another friend sir Jojo as a preparation for his Mt. Apo climb in January, now even before I get details or check what mountain will be up to I already found myself saying Yes, since its been a while that me and JP climbed together and before he gets mad I reserved the Nov. 9-10 date for that climb. 

The next day when I already have access to the net I immediately checked and reviewed the mountain that we'll be climbing and I was shocked when I found out about it. Mt. Balingkilat, literally the "Mountain of Thunder" in the native Aeta language, is at 1300 MASL one of the highest peaks in the Zambales Coastal Mountains. Just basing on the pictures I saw the place is so beautiful, breathtaking, perfectly created. Then I read some articles and blogs that contains the details of the said mountain, what got my attention the most is the hours of trek plus the direct assault of the trail and on how the hikers took the excruciating heat from the sun since there are no trees and shades to hide to. Nevertheless that didn't stopped me as my excitement even get much furious.

Unknowingly there will be a super typhoon coming that is said to hit the Philippines on weekends which is our climb date, that gave us a second thought, as always in mountaineering "safety first" no matter what but still we didn't lose hope, we monitored the weather and kept on updating each other. We also made a follow up with sir Juanito, the chieftain of the Aetas in Cawag if it will be safe for us to climb or not. We are praying and anticipating on were typhoon Yolanda will bring us. Here comes Saturday, the sky is still a bit gloomy with scattered rain showers but we got a good news from sir Juanito that we can actually climb. Yeeeeeesssss!!!!! Our spirits went on rooooaaaarrrrr.. aaahahahahahahah. That night Nov. 9 @ 8:50pm we board Victory liner bound to Olonggapo then we'll just take another bus to bring us to Subic. 

We've reached the Subic Police station at a little past 1200 to register and submit a letter of intent... then sir Juanito picked us up and brought us to Cawag to register again and pay the registration fee of P60.00. At exactly 0130 we started the trek with our guide kuya George (which is by the way is mandatory). We started the trek at dawn to escape the heat of the sun and in that way we can reach the top faster. However that didn't happen as Jp's asthma attacked so we have to slow it down making sure that no one will be left behind besides the peak will not go anywhere and will patiently wait for us. We just do a medium phase, at first since its still dark we could only appreciate the silhouette image of the mountain range that enveloped us and just minding the next step to make in the dark trail. We had our first long rest in Kawayanan to give Jp, and actually all of us a time to catch our breath, we rested for about 30-40minutes and I even fell asleep since I don't have sleep yet before that climb.

When we get back on our feet it was already 0300, being a bit behind our sched so we push on faster still keeping an eye on each other as we reach the top. As the sun rises the beautiful luscious scene is slowing revealing it self welcoming us to its kingdom, then at the same time the sun is also starting to warn that its gonna be a sunny climb. We had our breakfast  at 0630 and went back on track by 0700, on our way up , there are lots of stories shared and created, events that is so unforgettable and laughtrip that made our ascend easy. As I've mentioned in the first part that this is a climb that I wouldn't forget  aside from the fact that this Mountain of Thunder's trail will challenge you mentally and physically, if you are someone who have a fear of heights, well better think twice. I don't have fear of heights but here is were I had my close call to my last moment, as I climbed a tree there to take pictures when all of a sudden the branch that I was stepping on broke and I fell from it that is just besides the edge, good thing I was able to cling my arms on it, if not you wouldn't probably be reading this. After that heart stopping moment we continued on and once you are half way there the ascend is getting steeper and dangerous as it is almost in its 90' angle with just one wrong move or losing your balance will bring you down the hill. We may have felt already the hit of the sun but that didn't bother us that much as the wind is so strong that cools down your body but scaringly can push you to the edge. As we go higher and higher the more we see the full view of the range that is just.... aaaaaaahhhhh, jaw dropping... scene that you wouldn't thought was only 4 hours away from the urban, its view that you would just want to stare at. Literally I was and still astonished of this greenish, rich full image that still tarry in my mind.

After gruelling hours of trekking, climbing, resting, eating, trekking, ascending we've finally reached the campsite, which is equally beautiful, big enough to hold numbers of tent. Then roughly in 15 more minutes with few more steps you'll find your self at the peak where you will have a good, complete 360' view of the landscape. Those thousands and thousands steps we made is so worth it as we set our foot on the top. I had just thought, how i wish I have an eye camera that can send live feeds of what I saw that moment I would have done that to share to you all of what we saw. We also met some french students who also spent their weekends in taking the same trail we did, rested for while then they went down. However for us, we took our lunch first around 1100 while discussing if we are still going to push thru with traverse to Nagsasa falls or head back down the same trail. But seeing the big waves from afar bothered us and kuya George fearing that there will be no bangka available or no bangkeros will allow us to cross the sea, so sadly we just decided once again due to "safety first" rule we went back using the same path going up, Nagsasa falls can wait and will be back.  At 1200 we started our descend, it is more faster but we made sure that we take our time remembering details of the range which is more of luxurious walk. Laying our foot on a flat surface tells us that our lovely punishment is over and our reward is waiting for us, as along the way we met some Aeta children and gave them candies we brought as a simple appreciation of allowing us to pass through  their properties. Seeing these kids with a smile upon receiving simple candies also put a smile on our faces and relieved our tired bodies.

Given with a beautiful weather despite of having a typhoon, fair heat of the sun, cold strong wind I could say that this trek is one of the unanticipated climbs I ever did knowing nothing about this surprising mountain I'm so happy and thankful how blessed we are and how lucky I am that I could do this.. as a matter of fact I believe aside from Mt. Maranat I would like to take this trail again to feel the thrill, the excitement of danger it brings.... so perfect! As we drove away going back home I took one last glimpse of Mt. Balingkilat remembering  the moment being on top that makes me feel hefty of them all.. ahahahahah

 

 

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P.S. when I got back home and watched the late news from TV and got feeds from FB, it was only then I saw how typhoon Yolanda brought too much damaged in Visayas region my sympathy and prayers are with the victims... doing some personal things to help.. I also do hope that one day my co-Filipinos will be able to rise again facing another greenish, luscious, beautiful future. In Gods Grace. 

itsmejackie c",)

Love, failed, Moving on 2

Just a follow up of my last blog...


As of this date November 6, 2013 I could say that I'm done dealing with pain, that I'm fine now and that I've moved on. Well had I really moved on.. when I sometimes see them together (like in FB) I could still feel angry and annoyed, well probably then its not still 100% but personally i'm thankfully that I wasn't like before. I'm happy, I'm laughing and I'm even to talking to him now as a friends, as I've said .. he couldn't still let each other go for some reason.

From this day on will just wait and see to what and where our destiny will bring us.


JUST SHARING THE LOVE, PEACE &  HAPPINESS.

HAVE A GOOD DAY TO ALL, Thank you for being with me in this craziness... eheheheh

Watch out for my next entry as, its something that I've been miss doing, to travel.


itsmejac  c",)

Love, failed, Moving On

Wow how fast things went by, I was caught unguard and I never saw it coming! 
I was shocked, I was astonished, I don't know what to say but the tears from my eyes says it all. I thought that we are on the same page, that we have this "constant thing" but it seems it was only I who knew it. All of these months with all those words coming from you that makes me feel safe and makes me smile are all just shows, programmed by your mind that I watched, unfortunately deceived me.


However, as I felt your distance right then and there I knew that there is something wrong. Its either my mind COULDN'T comprehend it or just DOESN'T want to comprehend it because I thought that it will not gonna happen. But I was wrong until one day, actually just one week after you said that you couldn't commit to a relationship because you are so busy... you slapped me with the reality that you already have someone, you could have just told me rather than letting me see it with my two eyes and making me believe differently.. DID YOU KNOW HOW MUCH PAIN IT HAD COST ME... SOOO MUCH! that I cried my self to sleep, that I couldn't eat, that I couldn't focus...arrrrggg! I HATE YOU!


Well, I got so complacent that I forgot you could change, now that you're with someone else I have these "what ifs" lingering in my mind... "what if on the day that you've asked and I said yes, even it was only a month would it be us today?" "what if I insist that can it be us, would there be a chance?" And now those are just questions that will just be buried and forgotten. 

Why this phase of my life seems keeps on repeating, will there be any happy ending for me? I am not asking for someone rich nor someone with so much pretty face.. all I am just wanting is for someone to love me and care me. Someone who can stand by me, but why oh why you are all leaving me and finding someone else?

Sadly, I assumed and expected too much unfortunately that's were I went wrong... how sad it is. Hence, as my bezzie said in which I agree, her learnings for the past years *tested and proven* and I quote...

          the more you get close to a person... the more you get affected..
          the more you expect.. the more you get hurt..
          the more you speak..the more you get rejected..

So therefore never assume and never expect until there is clarity.


Right now I'm in the healing process, forgiving and trying to forget. Learning from this failed event and carrying the lesson, the love and happiness. Good thing we have talked somehow I've released the burn inside of me.  And as my friends told me the only way to heal... is to ACCEPT IT AND MOVE ON!!! Well that's where exactly I am right now... and will just be FRIENDZONE with him.... forever. But I bet you couldn't let me go and leave your life coz you will and you will be needing me.... ha ha ha ha


Again do not ASSUME AND EXPECT until there's clarity, control the emotion, at but continue to LOVE.


As of this writing the author is atleast smiling back again.. Thanks to all the friends who's been with her in this journey, who listened, who accepted her craziness and helped her to move on. LOVE YOU bezzie Quel, Len, Kure, Adah & Eve. 




itsmeJackie c",) 

Ang buhay bundukera

Ito ay isang pang istorya ng aking buhay mamumundok na nais kong ibahagi sa inyo...



Sa halos 5 taon ng aking pag-akyat
sa bawat hakbang na aking ginagawa
sa pagtapak sa lupa sa bundok na tinahak
may iba't ibang kwentong nabubuo ng kusa.

Maging hapo man, hiningay hinahabol,
balat man nagsusumigaw na ng "maitim na ako"
pero tila ang puso't  katawan ko nilamon na ng bundok
kaya't maya't maya ay bumabalik ako.

Sa dami na ng bundok na napanhik
tila bawat tuktok ay lagi pa ring sabik
kalooban ay parating puno ng galak
anyo ng kapaligiran dinadamang wagas.

Sa iba ang kabundukan ang nagiging kanlungan
kung saan itinatahan ang pagod na isipan
ang sa iba ito ay kanilang panata
subalit sana ay may kabuluhang dala. 

Iba't ibang tao ang nakakasalamuha mo
di mo kilala pero nagiging kaibigan mo
kay sarap lang malaman na magkatulad kayo
sa adhikain at hilig ng puso.

Sana lang sa bawat pag-ahon bitbit ay disiplina
hanggang sa pagbaba ito ay di mawala
at nang ang mahal na kabundukan ay mapangalagaan
para sa susunod na sa aming mga yapak.

Sa halos 5 taon ng aking pag-akyat
sa bawat hakbang na aking ginagawa
bukod sa alaala, aral ang nakukuha
mula sa kabundukan at mga nakakasama.

**Sa taong ito lumagpas na ako sa kota, pero tila di pa rin ako magsasawa
sa katunayan ang katawan naghahanap na nang mag-aanyaya o makakasama
kung baga di na kumpleto ang buwan ng walang pag-akyat. 
Sa oras ng sulating ito ay may planong umakyat ng Batulao sa Sept 21-22, sana matuloy
tas sa Maranat sa Sept 28-29 o mag San Jose circuit sa Tarlac.





itsmejackie c",)

Blog's 2nd year....

September 7, 2011 when I started out this blog since by that time I'm seeing friends having their blogs and  I also missed writing so I told to myself ....hhmmmm I want my own blog as well. My own place were I can write to, express my thoughts and feelings and just to say about anything. And now September 7, 2013 3 days after n) it is already its 2 years ha ha ha I still have this site up and writing (not running)  eheheh. Even though I don't visit that much this blog but I do make sure that I keep this posted as much as I can, I do keep visitors something to read on. 

HAPPY 2nd YEAR TO THIS BLOG....MORE ENTRIES TO COME so that means more experiences, more feelings to pour, more good things to share, more happy moments, more loneliness to fight against and more to writing. 

THANK YOU LORD FOR ALL THE WORDS that fill up this blog. Hoping for happy and good more entries.

"We live not only in a world of thoughts, but also in a world of things. Words without experience are meaningless." 

                                                                                 Vladimir Nabokov

To all read, comprehend, write and just live. 

Happy Writing.. Happy Reading

itsmeJackie c",)

the Leo girl @30

Last August 14, I celebrated my 30 years of existence, 30 years of gifted life, 30 years of ME.

As another year had passed and a new chapter begun it is something I have to face. I had this moment of having flash back of my life on how it was and how I made it through. I could say it is a colorful-wonderful 30 years, I had my downs, lows, flaws, error, mistakes but at the end of the day I've learned and that made me who I am....Yes it is cliche but that's the line that says it. I may not be perfect but I know I have done my best to the best of my knowledge besides no one is perfect... right? Lessons learned and fights that been won.

Being 30 an eye opener for me, my sister teases me "ate 30 ka na di ba" repeatedly but then I answer her back YES I AM and so you will be... still I'm happy and proud. There are a lot of things to think, to consider and actually I wonder what's next for me. I've done a lot of things, experienced all the good and bad. Despite of all sads and lows, still happiness and triumph reigns.
 
So many plans, so many wishes but as of the moment i am happy and contented. I could do the things I wanna do which is traveling and climbing. And at the same time somehow I was able to share with people of the same interest, also thankfully I became a part of a great team TAGALOG OUT-DOORS TRIBE who does not only climb but help and reached out as well to our less brothers and sister, and continuously to do more. Further more I have a wonderful family, loving friends, stable job arrrgg what else could I ask for, ahhhh probably just good health, safety and happiness for me, my loved ones and family. And oh I more wish a LOVELIFE.. ahhh Lord please.. eheheh

Well, there are so many things to say, to tell, to share but at this moment all I wanna do is to say thank you to all the people who went with me through thick and thin of my endeavour, of course to my beloved family parents, siblings (extended family), dear friends Mandy, Jp, Chris, mader Irna and bez Raquel... we may not be always together but I know you all will always be there forever, again THANK YOU. And oh not to forget addition to the list are my outdoor friends, my team... TAGOT, other teams i'm part off and to all my climbing buddies! Thank you.

Thank you to all, thank you for everything, thank you that you've become part of ME.

For whatever the reason/s of this writing just remember IT WAS CREATED BECAUSE YOU ARE PART OF THIS.
 
Lord God, you are my redeemer, I lift up everything to you and all that my heart whispers. Amen!

the Leo girl on another year, happy & proud




itsmeJackie  c",)