A blog space for you.. Dad

It was been almost 4 years since the last time I saw him/we saw him. That was when he decided to left us and be with the other woman. Honestly and  I don't wanna be hypocrite but every time I remember that day I can still feel a pain, a pain that sometimes makes me wanna cry and asked a question WHY? 

Our dad... Four years ago left us, four years ago when our family was so down, four years ago when I saw my mom literally cried her self to sleep, but sometime she couldn't even sleep. Those moments may be rambunctious but we've surpassed it. And Four years ago when we decided we have to live on our own, even with out him. 

More over than hatred or pain, I actually do miss him, I miss his laugh, the times that he cooks for us, the time that we watch t.v and talk, those was actually the moment that makes me cry. Last Friday my brother texted me and I believed my other siblings too telling us that he'll be giving a visit to our dad as our dad will be celebrating his birthday this May 31, all of a sudden my mode changed. I stopped what I was doing then, then I've felt longingness for him, I've thought of what he's doing, how is he doing... infact I missed him.

However, I'm not sure what stops me from wanting to see him, arrrgggg I hate this feeling, I hate the fact that I'm afraid to see him or probably I hate to see him with that other woman. (While writing... was taking a deep breath) Well moving on past is past, I don't wanna be a sinister and be austere, besides we've already moved on, thou there's just really this moment that holds me but I need to bounce back and I did... WE DID. Of all the events of our life that situation is the only thing that I'm rueful for.. but on the brighter side this unfortunate events makes us stronger, better and high-spirited family.

Where ever my dad is right now, whatever he is doing he is still being remembered as a matter of fact he's still always included in my prayers and will always be. No family will be left behind, even if they do. There's just one thing thou I'm not really sure, if I can join my brother because I have work that time, but probably I'll just send something for him. Seeing him will sure be inevitable but probably not for now... ONE DAY, SOON. 

As I always pray for him that may the Lord God guide him and protect him. Touch him and have a change of heart about the situation, for now thou may Godbless you dhi, loving you still with a crying but smiling heart.

Advanced HAPPY BIRTHDAY DHI... wishing you good health and Godbless you. Hope to see you again. Miss you.


Be happy, be safe.



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